One more pumpkin

This little pumpkin is sitting on my desk.  It is a sweet reminder of a few things and two people that I love.

I realize that I'm never going to get mom of the year.  Most days I'm just trying to hold it all together.  And it all feels like it needs to be tightly held.

Lillie goes to a wonderful daycare that I'm beyond thankful for our family to be a part of.  In fact, this daycare is so wonderful that they call themselves a "school."  You know the kind.  This daycare even has teacher work days...can you believe that!  A few weeks ago I got a note when dropping off Lillie that she "had to have" a small pumpkin that she could hold in her hand at "school" the next day.  Apparently, Brad or I had received the memo earlier in the week and totally disregarded it. 

I ran to the grocery store on my lunch break, search a drug store right after work and couldn't find a small pumpkin anywhere.  Ugh.  The week before I had seen the little orange gems everywhere- this week none to be found.  That evening I had plans to go visit a dear friend- and I told her about my unsuccessful mini pumpkin search.... I know it isn't a big deal.  It is just a pumpkin.  But what if she was the only 16 month old without a small pumpkin.  My sweet friend pulled a little white pumpkin off her shelf and sent me home with it.

Lillie happily toddled into school with the pumpkin the next morning and when I picked her up she stood at the door with the little white painted pumpkin in her hands.  Her's was the only white pumpkin and the colors where much more vibrant than the orange pumpkins.

This little pumpkin sitting on my desking, looking back at me, is reminding me today that taking time to share life with friends is more important that making sure all of my T's are crossed and I's are dotted.  And sometimes, it is okay to just let things fall into place.  Because sometimes they turn out more beautiful that way.